sorry to hear about your loss zaku, I know how rough it is bud but keep your head up man.
In 2009 I lost 3 grandparents, a brother, an uncle, and a very close friend and most of them was days apart. probably the hardest year of my life.
Anyhoooo!
Best of luck to ya, hope you find whatever you are looking for in life. all things eventually move forward you just have to be patient and take life one day at a time